In today’s prompt by Sky Banyes, we are to write a to-feel list, a good place to start before writing a to-do list.
It’s a challenge to think of feelings that you want to feel. I found myself reverting back to adjectives I wanted to be described with.
It is interesting to consider those big ideas of who we want to be and feel, what is our why? What are my deepest aspirations and yearnings? It’s interesting that they really do have a lot to do with feelings, as the prompt explained.
I want to be fulfilled, productive, and make a difference.
This feeling wheel has helped me to create my own “to-feel” list today.
Here is my “To-Feel” Wheel – Most importantly my feelings are grounded in LOVE–supernatural and natural.
And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.
Colossians 3:14
I just put the feelings on my wheel that I want to feel, or I am mindfully choosing to feel. I know other feelings will come, and I will accept them, but most of these are ones that I aspire to feeling. (I don’t particularly want to feel lonely or exposed, but I do want to be aware of the pandemic and live with good loving decisions, like wearing a mask and using Zoom, when I would rather not. To love others and myself, sometimes it will include painful feelings.)
Sky asked: “Are your priorities, habits, and rituals serving these feelings? What steps can you take to honor the items on your ‘to-feel’ list?”
After 86 days in semi-quarantine and school cancelled for me, yes, I can say that I am learning new priorities. I’ve been given a gift of extra time in 2020, and I am doing my best to “feel” these emotions, and act accordingly. Prior to the quarantine I was running to and fro without direction, my main feeling was stressed.
This is Day 51 of The Isolation Journals with Suleika Jaouad.